Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall;
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the king’s horses and all the king’s men
Couldn’t put Humpty together again.
I know you’re wondering what on earth a child’s nursery rhyme has to do with life here at BCOM. It has everything to do with me. Call me Humpty. I’ve been at BCOM for about a month now. During this time, my way of thinking about God has been radically changed. When I first came, I was full of pride; I didn’t want to listen to God. God was fine as long as I could keep him in a box. But BCOM wouldn’t let me do that, and neither would God.
Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall…
So here I was, sitting on a wall. A wall of my own making. One of stubbornness and selfishness. I had my own agendas and I wasn’t about to let anyone, even God, change them. Sure, I knew I was here at BCOM because God wanted me here, but did that give him the right to run the rest of my life too?
…Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
There are only two ways to get off a high wall that I see. One is to fall, the other is to jump. I knew I could either trust God as he was asking me to and take a leap of faith, or my pride would cause me to fall (Prov. 16.18). Either way, a drop from that height will break you. You will either be humbled or shattered. Depends how you get down.
All the king’s horses and all the king’s men…
I realized that I had been relying on people and things to fulfill me, to satisfy me, and in short, to come between me and God. That had to change.
…Couldn’t put Humpty together again.
This would be a dismal ending, if indeed the poem ends here. Everything leaned on turns out to be weak and useless. But you’ll notice, as I did, that the poem says nothing about the King being unable to put Humpty together again. And that was the lesson I learned. God, the King, can take the broken pieces of my life and put them back together not as I think they should go (Is. 45.9) but how they should be.
Only God can do that.
This post was written by Rachael Snavely, an August Freshman from Otsego, MN. Thanks Rachael, I’m looking forward to having you write more for the blog 🙂